Running is not at all fun
Now even less under the hot sun
I've got no time to stop and chat
Been sorry for that poor dead cat :(
Running from the tall, blank glance
Since I don't want just one last chance
Thursday was a living nightmare
Sorry, dear brother, for what I dared
For trying to help you, trying to save
Deceiving you and the rest, but you are so brave.

Welp

Aside from the crapload of drama going down in the blogosphere, things are going pretty well (I guess?).

...this is exactly why I don't comment much. Or rather, part of the reason.

1. Internet fights are nasty and I would rather stay out of them
2. I'm almost always misunderstood when I post something
3. I will not be accused of attention whoring if it's the last thing I do
4. anything else that I forgot to mention

 In other news, I'm still trying to decide on something for Experiment 3. I don't really want to do things that have already been tried a gazillion times, but that doesn't leave me with much.
*sigh* I'll figure something out.

Experiment 2

Date: Wednesday, April 6, 2011
Time: 6:34pm

Goal: To observe the effects of holy scripture on TDF

Supplies:

• one holy scripture of your choice
• one TDF

Steps:

• wait for TDF to appear
• attempt to use holy scripture to ward TDF off

Hypothesis: TDF will either leave or be completely unaffected

Results:
TDF appeared in my room right as I started to believe it wouldn't show up. I shrieked like a little girl and reflexively accidentally chucked my Bible at it. TDF caught said Bible, seeming somewhat confused. After a minute or so it placed the Bible down and left.

Conclusion:
The Christian Bible itself will have no effect on TDF.

Other Notes:
I had my ipod recording the entire experiment. Nothing showed up but static when I tried to look at the footage later.

Experiment 1

Date: Tuesday, March 15, 2011-Wednesday, March 16, 2011

Time: roughly 9:30pm-5:30am

Supplies:

• single sheet of paper with classic Operator Symbol drawn on it in ink
• tape
• wall

Steps:

1. tape Operator Symbol to wall
2. go to sleep
3. observe results in the morning and/or if woken up

Hoped-for results:

• to keep TDF at bay
• to get a good night's sleep

What actually happened:
I had an uninterrupted, peaceful night. However, I awoke in the morning to the smell of burned paper. The Operator Symbol had been burned to a crisp without setting any fire alarms off. Especially concerning because, since I am deathly afraid of fire, I have several smoke alarms installed in my bedroom.

Conclusion:
I will not be putting up an Operator Symbol again except perhaps in a dire situation.

Other notes:
I have had uninterrupted sleep except for the occasional nightmare (and of course that week of terror) since the experiment.

Resolve

I am not going to lie down and let it kill me.

It's too hot

I mean seriously. Its like we have a week of spring and then jump head first into summer ;_;
I'm on my school's golf team (whaddya mean it's not a sport) and we had to walk nine holes in freakin eighty degree weather.

Things I forgot to do to combat this weather:
-Wear a hat
-put sunblock on
-bring a water bottle
-get somehing filling to eat beforehand
-wear a light colored shirt

Not to mention that this was a golf course. Ergo trees.
It wasn't that bad. I think I only saw it oh... Five or six times.

Ok. Maybe that was bad. But I was in a group and it didn't actually do anything.


Now for some other stuff:
Frap- I hope things get better for you D:
Joce- I'd like to say essentially the same thing, but for different reasons
...you know, extend that feeling to everyone out there. We all need it.

Peace
-Jess

Dark

It's dark where I am right now, except for the screen in front of me. I'm in a room with no light.
But I like it when it's dark. Sure, the dark hides monsters, but there are good kinds of darkness too. Like the darkness of a mother's womb. And did anyone ever think that we could use the darkness to hide from the monsters?
That's how I feel right now.
Safe
Enveloped
Protected

jr;;p

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I'm Back

If I ever talk about "taking a break" again, someone kick me, please.
And it certainly appears that Spiral had his share of fun while I was gone o_O

Last week was a nightmare -shudder-
I thought things would get better. They didn't.
They got worse.

You know, it'll probably be easier if I just post my journal from last week to show what happened.

3/25/11
Ugh. I hate my math teacher. She's SO ANNOYING. And she's horrible at teaching. I love math but I hate her class. Doesn't really help that 2/3 of what she's teaching us is what I learned last year.

3/26/11
I'm excited
My friend's birthday is on Thursday. I know exactly what I'm getting her. It's gonna be fun.
And my horticulture teacher's birthday is on Friday. That's right, April Fool's day. We're already planning what to do to her what to get her for her birthday.

3/27/11
I tried. I really tried. I though that if I ignored it enough that it'd go away. But it's showing up even more now and I'm scared. I felt kind of better once I made the blog cause even though not many read it I still didn't feel so alone.
But I can't get on it know I just see a blank page and I think my oldest brother's been hallowed he's only nine but he oh god I can't think about this he's only nine LEAVE HIM ALONE

(Later)

...I'm going to kill Spiral. How'd he even get in here? He just opened my door and walked in. It was pretty obviously him even though I'd never seen him before. His mask is plain white with a small, black spiral up on his right cheekbone.
I'm gonna try and write the conversation. I'm officially paranoid now so I had my ipod videotaping my room.

Spiral: -walking in.- Why are you crying?

Me: -glaring at him- Shut up.

S: You know, things would be so much easier if you would just-

M: Shut UP!

S: -he leans against my wall- Are you still upset that you cannot access your precious blog?

M: -at this point I turn away and refuse to answer-

S: You said a week, and we are holding you to that. Once the week is up you are more than welcome to-

M: -I try to punch him-

S: -chuckles- Oh, come one, you should know by now that attacking me will change nothing.

M: -I glare at him again- Just go away.

S: ...I am growing impatient. I have not yet failed the master and I do not intend to fail him now.

M: Are you deaf? Go. Away.

S: -smirks. you could hear it in his voice- On the other hand, you could always lose another-

M: GO AWAY! LEAVE THEM ALONE! -I try to attack him again but he almost disdainfully throws me to the ground-

S: Didn't I tell you? Attempting to attack me achieves nothing.

M: -I go back to ignoring him-

S: Fine, then. I will return again later. Have a nice day.

3/28/11
Same old, same old. Nothing new happening.

3/29/11
Nightmares are not fun. Especially when you know they're Slender-designed specifically to draw on your worst fears and sap your will.

3/30/11
HA. THAT'S WHAT YOU GET
My mom forgot to get the mail and I stepped outside to grab it.
Lo and behold who was outside. None other than my dear old buddy Spiral!
He tried to corner me. I, then, regrettably had no other choice but to pull out my 10 inch, serrated knife and slice him with it. His howl of pain was very satisfactory.
For once it's nice to have parents who are totally oblivious to anything even remotely Slendy-related; my mom had no reaction at all as I calmly walked inside (with the mail she sent me out to get) and begain to clean my knife off.

3/31/11
Tomorrow's the day.

I can't wait
Don't wanna be late
This is gonna be great

Week of nightmares ends
I'll be back among friends
As my sanity mends

The sun is out at last
Ending my long dark fast
It's all now in the past

I greet life with a grin
Laugh at the world's noisy din
This time I'm sure to win!



...please excuse me while I go crawl off in a corner and cry catch up on what I've missed.